A week ago, my classmates and I did something for our majors (Advertising Visualization and Art). We listened to this song and afterwards, we were given three minutes to write what we felt. I poured out every emotion I had for the past few months. It was tough- writing something so heavy under three minutes. For some crazy reason, I somehow managed to.
This is me in the past four months of my life.
There I was, running back and forth in the wilderness. It felt like I had nowhere to go. I was lost in this forest; this dark and gloomy forest. And then suddenly, I saw a glimpse of light- hope. I ran as fast as I could to reach the end so I can finally see what was in store for me. I closed my eyes then I took a deep breath… Alas! There I was out in the open. I can smell the sea. Oh, that glorious scent! I can feel the sun as it burns my skin. I can hear the birds chirping and the warm summer breeze. It was paradise. It was magic. Or at least I thought so… The earth began to move and break and before I know it, I was falling. The transition was too fast, I could barely grasp on anything. From what was seemingly paradise, I was back to where I started. I grew tired to a point where I felt like giving up. I couldn’t move anymore. My legs seemed to be part of that godforsaken forest. And again, I saw something glimmer. There was a light but it shone differently. I thought heavily for a while if I was willing to give it another try. I was too hurt, too broken to even move. “What if it will hurt me more?”, I asked myself. Then I realized, I don’t want to be in this dark shady forest. I want to live. I want to smell the air and actually feel it. I want to see the birds and feel like I’m flying too. I want to feel alive again. Little by little, I started picking up the pieces of my horrid past. I walked and walked towards the light and before I know it, I was running again. Then I stopped. I tried to catch to my breath for a while. I let go of my fears and stepped outside of the sun. For the first time in my life, I finally got to feel what I never felt. I’m alone but I’m not lonely anymore. I felt a sense of peace and happiness. Now I know, everything was just a matter of choice- whether you want to live your life in the dark or not. I fell hard and I was hurt like I’ve never been hurt before but here I am now…… and I feel free.
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I miss this place and I miss these people. Look how cozy and right at home we looked like, guys. They are the most amazing people you could ever meet. (L-R: Nirrini, Koji, Me, Pat, Samie, Elisa, Thea, Ellie. [Not in the picture, because they were outside smoking: Jelito and Ecks])
Photo by: Maine.
I finally found my equation to happiness: this x everyday. I love you guys.
In business we are always taught to take care of your ‘human resources’ but these guys are not ‘resources’. We’re each other’s support group and we always back each other up. I love this family (we’re really a family, ask ‘nay Nessa lol).
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I miss this place and I miss these people. Look how cozy and right at home we looked like, guys. They are the most amazing people you could ever meet. (L-R: Nirrini, Koji, Me, Pat, Samie, Elisa, Thea, Ellie. [Not in the picture, because they were outside smoking: Jelito and Ecks])
Photo by: Maine.
I finally found my equation to happiness: this x everyday. I love you guys.
In business we are always taught to take care of your ‘human resources’ but these guys are not ‘resources’. We’re each other’s support group and we always back each other up. I love this family (we’re really a family, ask ‘nay Nessa lol).
Who says friends can’t be your family?
My nineteenth birthday was spent with the people I cherish the most.
Words are not enough to express my gratitude. You are golden. I love you so much, my dear.Erika || 12th January 2012
Ecks is one of the most beautiful creatures I have been blessed with in my entire lifetime. There are very special people in my life who I try very hard to keep, to nurture, to take care of and I try my best to shield them from pain, anger and suffering. She is one of those few who I dedicate everyday to always making sure that she is alright, her heart is well and that happiness consumes her.
The feelings are mutual. I thank you for teaching me and helping me, unburdening my heart even just for a moment, pointing out my mistakes so I could learn for them. The saying goes, true friends are hard to find but I found you so easily, and I am willing to keep you for as long as it takes.
Belated happy birthday, my love. You are beautiful in every way. Your beauty surpasses that which is imaginable.
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“Humans have a dual nature, existing in matter with the potential of the divine. We are a microcosm within the macrocosm. Love exemplifies this longing to realize the divine within us and to help others realize their potential, as well. Love helps us to find a relationship between the two worlds we live in. Employing Diotema’s process of ascent, it is a movement upward to a finer and finer sense of what love is, and as we ascend we come closer to God through love’s prompting our own abilities to create, first on the physical plane, then on correspondingly finer planes in the creation of works of art, which can range from a piece of literature, to a relationship, to ourselves. Love relationships have a special potential in developing spirituality, for in searching for and recognizing the divine within the beloved, one discovers the divine in oneself, and comes to recognize that, in all its forms, divinity is one and the same. Here, love can lift one up and love’s beauty lies in its ability to do this for human beings. It is a process, not an end in itself, in which humans can touch the divine and in this state of perception the mystical experience takes place, a union of the human spirit with God. I agree with Diotema that this experience is ultimately the most meaningful of human experiences, purest and most refined in quality, and love, in all it’s various forms, can help one get there, again and again.”
Thank you, Philosophy. :-)
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